LO(ve) IS EL(egant)

This week (or maybe the last 3 weeks) has been full of movie exchanges!! (from Mel, Tara, Candy, Hui, Melanie etc…) I wanted to take make a HUGE LONG list of movies that are being recommended to me! I will be updating this list regularly!

from Tara
>La Haine
>La Cité
>Brotherhood
>Return to Paradise
>La Prophète
>Viva Riva
>Julia
>Serpico
>And Justice for All
>Holy Mountain
>I Am Love
>Army of Darkness
>Legend
>The Believer
>Breakfast on Pluto 

From Candy

Hi, I’m very pleased to get the list which seems exiting .

i would recomend korean movies .

1. 식객(cooking conputition)

2. seven days(kiddnapping,)

3. old boy(suspition)

4. 집으로comic child and oldwomen

5. 괴물suspition, family

6. 시 poem old women writing  poems

7. 즐거운 인생  4  friends make a band  20 years later

8. 박하사탕 a man became worse and worse

9. 우리들의 행복한 순간 between a prisener and a women conversation

10. 내 여자 친구를 소개합니다. romantic

11. 라디오 스타  a star

12. 공공의 적 suspition

13. 8월의 크리스 마스 love

14. 동물원 옆 미술관 love

15. 추격자 suspition

16 Mother suspition

17 겨울연가  ronantic

From Hui

I introduce some chinese moive I like that are lost on Journey(comedy),Curse of the Golden Flower,
House of Flying Daggers (action).TV drama:
My Own Swordsman(comedy)


Happy new year

Hui

They have disabled the display of facebook apps on facebook so I would like to preserve what I’ve written on my extended info!

Languages spoken: English, Tagalog, Illocano, and some French

Places I’ve been to :): Northwest Territories, Yukon, Alaska (Skagway, Anchorage), BC (Vancouver), Ontario (Ottawa, Toronto), California (LA, Long Beach, San Diego), Nevada (Las Vegas), Hawaii (Honolulu), Florida (Orlando,Palm Beach), Hong Kong (Macau), -mainland- China (Beijing, Shenzen, Shanghai), The Philippines (Manila, Cagayan, Cebu, Puerto Gallera, Zambalez, Ilocos, Dumaguette/Valencia),Thailand (Koh Samui), Switzerland (Zurich, Lucern), Italy (Venice, Rome, Florence <3, The Vatican) France(Monaco, Paris, Nice), Québec (Montréal), Michigan (Detroit)

Favorite Drinks: Pina Collada, Sherley Temple, Harvey Wallbanger, Malibu Pineapple, Brown Cow, Baileys

Corona, San Miguel Light, Carlsberg,

Malted Soy Bean Milk, Horlicks, Mango Juice, Lime Soda

Favorite Actors/Actresses: Kevin Spacey, Leo deCaprio, Denzel Washington, Ethan Hawk, Robert Downey Jr., Edward Norton, James McAvoy,  John Cleese, Colin Ferth, Lauren Graham, Alexis Bleidel, Sandra Bullock, Cate Blanchet, Maryl Streep, Judy-Anne Santos, Audrey Hepburn, Rachel McAdams, Zooey Deschanel, Jenna Elfman, Julie Delpy, Helena Bonham Carter, Sally Field

Favourite Colours: Brown, Mustard yellow, Apple Green, Grey. Baby pink/blue

Fashion/Accessories: Big Bug eyed Sunglasses, Flip Flops, Headbands, Caprees, Black and white stripes! Loose 3Quarter sleeved tops, Baggy tanks, slouches, Big hold-all saggy shoulder bags (hobo bags!), long necklaces/chains/beads, long sleeve-short bodied- shirts. Lace and Silk

Scents: Burberry Brit, Esprit- For my senses, L’orchidee- Leonard, Escada- Island kiss, Anna Sui - Dolly Girl, Stella Mcartney, Este Lauder- pleasures, Ferrari Black, Gean Paul Gutier le Male, Mochino Couture, Tommy- T Girl, Hugo Boss- Intense., Lancolm- Benghal, Chloé
Things I can’t live without: Colour, My mom, Google, Music, 
I get pleasure from/put off by really random things like: YES YES- The Smell and feel of a new crispy dollar bill- Hot Twins- The sound of typing on a keyboard (especially on my laptop)- eye masks
NO NO- Leather couches- metallic smells- hangers
Current Obsessions: - Broken Social Scene- Whistling- Federer- Johnson’s bedtime lotion-  my radio- my guitar- (b&w)stripes and polka dots - latin music- latin jazz, flamenco, salsa, awesome- How I met your mother (show)- kissing <3- Vitamin Water- SUDOKU puzzles- Desperate Housewives - Blip.fm- tumblr- orange juice - texting- Accidentally On Purpose

Favourite Songs:- U Got it bad: Usher- When the stars go Blue: Ryan Adams- Hide and Seek: Imogen Heap- Goodnight and Go: Imogen Heap- Something About Us: Daft Punk- Police and Private: Metric- Around the World: Daft Punk- PDA (We just don’t care): John Legend- Look up: Stars- The Girl from Ipanema: Stan Getz/Astrud Gilberto-Your Ex-Lover is Dead: Stars- You and I: Jason Mraz- Somewhere only we know: Keane- Finger Bib: Aphex Twin- Make Love: Daft Punk- The only moment we were alone: Explosions in the sky- Let’s get it on: Marvin gaye- Flume: Bon Iver- Ellie Goulding (Starry Eyed/Under the Sheets)- Hold Yuh- Gyptian ft. Nicki Minaj- Edge of Desire- John Mayer- Wheel- John Mayer

• McDonalds and foods high in sugar and sodium
• alcohol
• people in clubs
• tanning/too much sun
• sex (the drive has lowered…? wtf?)
• Stupid People
• advertisement

Changes in attitudes

• Less anxious around people
• More open to possibilities in terms of relationships and lifestyles
• better understanding of the “average” person
• more culturally aware of differences between people
• more aware of similarities between people
• Less needy, more self sufficient

 :) Just some observations.

…that I wrote back in 2009?

Rain Haikus

I smell the spring rain
skies dark, clouds heavy, and me
wishing you were here

thunder storm warning?
power outage in moho?
would be fun with you

my fave:

spring- season of love,
colours, short shorts, flowers and
fertilization

Sneezing

My heart is full to the brim. It’s the feeling where tears and 

a huge smile meet. It’s almost pain, it’s almost pleasure, it’s the 

sound of harmonies and melodies. It’s a shortness of breath, it’s a 

light headedness and a bit of clarity. It makes me moan with 

happiness. I’m so giddy with love it is fantastic. 

…because….

you have funny facial expressions/reactions like me but more like a dog when you tilt your head and raise your eyebrow and you make air points when you make a point. I like when you HAH! or is it HUH! whatever, it is very cute; you can fix anything, including your earphones and me sometimes; you bookmarked my tumblr under cool shit and when I figured out how to get back your bookmarks, you were so mad for 2 seconds and then jumped me on your apartment floor; you have very original ideas, sorry to ruin some of them with google; you laugh a lot- I have never met anyone who could match the rhythm of my laughter or my energy frequency; you don’t mind change; you like adventures and rustic environments;you’ll try anything (except day old food), you like movies and awesome shows/music I like, we read books together and to each other out loud, we aspire and dream together, you like dragons and other boy things like leggo- you made that amazing movie. That takes dedication and patience- both of which you have ample of. We play bike tag despite it being so dangerous, I rode on your handlebars and everyone thought we were so cute. I felt high the first time we did it at night- that was a pretty vivid moment. We have fights that last 5 minutes and make love for hours after; We judge passersby with no shame, we pee and poo in each other’s presence- that barrier was broken quickly. You told me a poem after I had just told you that I started writing you one. you spoon me really tightly and we invented the sailors knot. You made me the best bday card, and you painted all the tiny dots. you inpire me, you encourage my creativity- you got me paints and canvas; we go to art galleries!, you are not materialistic, you are thrifty like me, (although I still need to learn that quality is better than quantity),  I can relate to your friends and family, you see my soul sometimes it’s scary, but maybe it’s because sometimes we see a reflection of ourselves in each other, maybe that’s what being in love is? Being reflexive together; we have philosophical conversations that give us mentalgasms; we dance randomly in public or to modest mouse in your living room, we play catch, and soccer at night and in our backyard; chess on our first dates; ‘Spit’ at the beach and in the walk-in clinic while we wait for your Xray results and have Metro sudoku races on the train; you win all the time except that time with foosball- i get bragging rights forever. We dipped in freezing lake ontario water, three times and it was so cold it hurt. And then it pelted mentossized raindrops when I left. It was a very pathetic fallacy moment.You’re modest and simple and so personable, you don’t think megan fox is that hot, and like zoe deschanel instead! (we have the same taste in GIRLS), you’re good at math and maps - you fill that void in my brain, you help me get to sleep with visualisations of tree houses in tropical rainforests and diving, you make me so  high off of love sometimes I could cry, we made crescent rolls, mexican grilled cheese!, spinach omelets, thai chicken wings,burgers, salmon, and countless pastas. you strengthen my willpower but you weaken it at the right times :), you’re educated and wise without being arrogant. We exhibit PDA, and would like to engage in PDBJ/F, PDC, and eventually PDS. We kissed on your rooftop as it was lightning, we have perfect moments of elation, we layed side by side and made epic headphones out of your epic speakers and listened to Daft punk; and i love it when you dance to Justice, you have the most awesome bop and bum wiggle when you taste good food or catch sight of cupcakes, or toblerone. you ate that like a monster with chocolate all over your face. You’re a little boy at heart and i love that,…without sounding like a pedophile. I wish I had known you sooner, or no not really because this was something that was waiting to happen and nature has the best timing. you like to get out of the city and be immersed in nature once in a while. We planted Lovage and marshmallow. we both voted for the green party the last minute. We judge each other and things in general by essence and principle, we are not superficial. We are spontaneous- not too routinely planned or recklessly wild. But when we have plans, we get so excited and sometimes deliriously happy. You get me back on track like that bike last night whenever I get myself involved in stupid commitments like Primerica and sketchy pageants. You teach me how to stand my ground. I feel secure in social gatherings- aware enough of you without being suspicious or paranoid, we stay true to ourselves and have lives apart from each other. We choose to be together rather than making it a necessity- we do not compromise :) You got me in the driver’s seat, is that a metaphor? But then I stalled it. Is that another metaphor? You pushed the car until we got a spark. We put our initials on the bike bell you bought me and we made our own egg holders out of clay that we baked- all in one week. You carry me over your shoulders, you’re so strong without showing too much muscle because your biggest muscle is your heart. You’re lean with a big heart :D 

You have a sexy bottle neck that you discovered in the shower and then you couldn’t stop touching them because you couldn’t believe you are sexy. Not knowing you’re sexy is sexy. You play the sax, that’s sexy too. You bring me things from Richmon hill like a bike and tennis racquet. You spell racquet, racquet and not racket. haha. You have all of these ideals and values that you always strive for but like happiness, it is not a destination or state, it’s a process and I appreciate your effort. You like to be clean and healthy but sometimes you lose sight of that and I like to remind you. Most of all, I love the fact that I can go on because my reasons of why I love you is limitless.

Wild.

What does sex do to our body?

And I don’t mean just the actual intercourse or act itself. Obviously it’s a physical and intimate surrender. You open to someone completely vulnerable, naked and uninhibited. Walls are knocked down, you reveal your body, mind and soul and it’s a magical experience. Unless you’re both completely drunk off your ass or neither of you utter a word and it’s a completely animalistic fully clothed one night stand. 

Otherwise, it’s like telling a secret, or going all in in a poker game, or investing in stocks that you’re certain will reward you in the long-run. All of these share a degree of risk, trust and need for insurance. 

The point where the physical and spiritual interact is…I think where our feelings reside. At least, these are indicators that tell us we are not just animals (or men) capable of spreading our seed and numbing ourselves to possibilities of getting close to someone at a level of complete intimacy and thus vulnerability. Sex is both a need and a want. I’m having a difficult time separating the two. Because if it’s a need- if it was a need, then I would be less liable for what I’ve done- My responsibility and guilt are lessened. No one likes responsibility. But if it was a want, then it means I made this choice and I am responsible for the consequences- that is pain and suffering and well… ultimately guilt and regrets. These are the thoughts running through my mind:

Is he thinking of me?

Does he feel the same emotions I’m feeling?

Was it all fake?

Could he see himself with me?

Does he feel like we’re not a good fit?

Should I not have said that thing about my ex?

(well I want to be completely honest and I was- he’s in it fully informed of my state and situation- that is a good thing)

Are we both trying to cool it off- waiting for those 2 weeks will be maddening.

Sex is a human and animal thing. To treat it as a pure need makes you numb and emotionless like a dog. To treat is a human want is the way I want to go. Pain and regrets included, I wouldn’t trade the bonding that occured between us that Sunday night for pride and power. I don’t mind looking foolish or feeling attached. I can do it. I have the strength and fearlessness in me to take the first step always. If the other does not, I at least know that I have tried and that all possibilities were attempted. This attitude must maximize the probabilities of success. I think it is true when they say the only failure is never trying. 

Everything feels surreal to me. What would evolution say about too many changes? Does it depend on a being’s ability to react? Will that ability change with the environment? Am I becoming more verstile and resilient and how do I know which speed is my optimum level? Are extremely rapid changes in my life not productive? A massive change that has just occured to me is the detachment from a past love and a reattachment to abstract floaters- Strange men who wiggle themselves into my life at my most vulnerable states (alcohol + emotional)- One man in particular has come close to my heart. It frightens and excites me to no end.

but…how can two human beings, complete strangers one moment share such explosive and powerful and soulful moments the next in a matter of 2 days. And how can that be taken away suddenly again?  And if I was the only one that felt that… if it was all just pretense for him, well then he missed out. I would not feel betrayed would I? I mean a lot of what I felt, was riding on the mutualness of our feelings. Which is why in relationships, I can’t feel these emotions alone. I need to know the other person’s stance and that the love or lust I feel is not unrequited. This would be like playing Battleship in a way. Arbitrary chances to sink the other’s battleships and relying on the the other not knowing my position- blindly fighting my way into survival- This is not the way to go. You need some sort of tactic- strategies to protect yourself… but it really isn’t all about winning. Or it is… you just have to win together. And… I think that in a relationship or a union or interaction both need to be completely open and honest, and when there is certain information not available to either parties, the default action should always be to take the chance- dive into it by blind faith that the other won’t fuck you over. Because this, I believe is the only way that people can learn to love. You can call it a win-win situation but I call it vituously living, relaxed- free of anxiety, distrust and instead full of forgiveness, humility and appreciation for love and human beauty. 

Sometimes I sound ingenuine but what I feel is completely true.

I could look indifferent when I actually care.

Sometimes I’m quiet when i don’t want silence.

Sometimes I fear what I excel at.

I could see it coming. You know how you sometimes get a very bad twitch in your gut that sort of forebodes an unfortunate event? It’s happened. And I feel like I’ve gotten my mind and body prepared for it. The last couple of days, I’ve not felt very good- haven’t been speaking normally nor have felt like myself. The last week was spent in between homes like a stray going from house to house experiencing other people’s family and drama. The last month was a temporary permanence to last me through Christmas and New Year but I was not in my own element. No privacy, no direction, no stability. I come and I go, like John Mayer’s song. This bad thing that happened is that my boyfriend has given up on me; or he’s on the verge of- I think I’m about to lose him. All because I’m “unstable” in terms of “life?” (what ever that means.) I think It’s time to grow up, plan, make money, and get my shit together.